Depression Therapy-Update

I have to say the last few months have been rough I stopped going to therapy in October I wasn't feeling like it was helping. I have to say without it I am worse. I am going back I had to deal with some rough patches this summer and fall. I have I hate to say it out loud but have thought about killing myself a few times this year. I haven't really come to the terms with that thought.. but before you go ohh your life isn't that bad and you haven't gone thru anything. I also don't post what happened to me for a reason. Yes, I was sexually assaulted, abused, for years and verbally abused and mentally used. I have dealt with many things I don't want to share but wanted to give an update that this holiday season is rough for me even though  I have thought about suicide I would never do it. I have a little girl who I love more than anything in the world and a husband I adore. I just wanted to tell my followers that life happens and that I deal with the same things that others deal with. I am recovering from years and years of pain I know I am not alone I feel alone but I am not. #metoo