Sunday, May 28, 2017

Color Palette of the Week!!

So I love color palettes it's so wonderful to find colors and match in a lovely setting. I have started making several I hope to have a page just for these. 

Tuesday, May 23, 2017

Color Palette Tuesday

Wednesday, May 17, 2017

All The Places She Will Go!

It hit me today that my little sister is graduating from high school next week. I was the third person to hold this sweet girl after she was born. I recall that day she was born, and I remember realizing that I wasn't the only one here anymore. I now had a sister. I love Bell so much and I wanted to tell her how proud of her I am. I never thought I would have a sibling, but Bell came and I felt my entire world change, and for the better. She has been such a blessing. I recall all the cute funny things she used to do and what a crazy little kid she used to be. She'd kill me for telling this, but she even enjoyed a tasty hairball left behind by our now passed tabby Oscar (babies, am I right?)

I found this picture in my archives. She was a winner of a golden ticket (some candy and a free DVD of Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory) during a promotion run by our theater when Charlie and the Chocolate factory came out. She was so excited to win. It was great seeing her smile. She was one of my first models in my studio photography class that I took in college. She has a zest for life, and one I wish I had. She is definitely the traveler of the family. In fact, after she graduates next week she will be traveling to Germany. I am going to miss this silly face for a few weeks.

Bell has shown me so much in the 18 years she's been here. She's been a wonderful sister to me, and now she is a terrific aunt to my daughter. I hate to think of anything happening to her,  I wouldn't be the same. I would be missing a friend, and a sister. I hope that Bell grows and learns as she graduates, and finds her place in this world. She is planning to go to a college in the fall, still nearby, which makes me happy, and I am so looking forward to seeing all the great things she will be doing with her life. 

Saturday, May 13, 2017

My Mothers Day Wish List

Sunday, May 7, 2017

Let me tell you a Secret!!

I have a secret. It isn't pretty, but let me get it out. I have struggled with this secret for 3 years now, going on 4. My "big" secret is that I weigh 135 pounds. This isn't a dirty secret. And it shouldn't be. This isn't something I should be ashamed of, or made to feel awful about. But it's something I did used to be ashamed of, before I came to the realization that I am at a normal weight for my age. *COUGH COUGH* 30... The pressure on a mother to "get back to your pre-baby weight" is real, and it is rough. From all the shared blogs you see of all these "super" moms who lose all the baby weight right after the baby or babies are born, to the "inspiring" videos and Instagram posts of the mom on the treadmill while their newborn sleeps alone in their crib. There are a lot of factors in how someone carries their weight, especially after a pregnancy. Sometimes it's our genetic makeup, sometimes it's how we eat, and sometimes its just the way our hormones are saying we should be. 

 Weight is still the only thing on which it still seems to be universally okay to judge someone. It shouldn't be. But sometimes it feels like it's what makes or breaks you. I have found that it makes me. I made a human with my body and yes, I have some fat left over from the exhausting and painful process of creating my daughter. I've struggled with it, for a long time I would look at my body and I think "wow, all this fat..." When in fact it's something I should be rejoicing, and proud of, in that not only is my fat a part of me now, but it's a reflection of my joy of becoming a mother. Maybe I could lose the fat, true, but I will always have the stretch marks and skin to remind me of how precious my time was being with child. Ever since my daughter was born I have been so worried about how my body looks to everyone else that I stopped eating what I liked and stopped eating certain things all together. I felt that that if I didn't eat those things I would then in turn be smaller and be one superhero mother who loses weight fast. I can tell you that was a failed attempt. I didn't thrive, I lost a part of what I enjoyed. I love food. I love life. I have had a near death experience twice. Once when I was younger and the second when I developed a serious bacterial infection. It was a profound moment in my life. After that issue I had to put my life into perspective and decide how I wanted my life to be. I choose my daughter, and I choose this weight. This weight is me. This weight makes me who I am. I am a mother. A fighter. I didn't choose this weight, it chose me.
Saturday, May 6, 2017

I Do Photography!!

If you haven't checked out my Photography site it's right here!! I have actuality been taking photos for years and stopped after my daughter as born. I am getting back in it with special projects coming. I am posting my of my past work here and on my flickr page. 

Friday, May 5, 2017

Cinco De Mayo Chickpea Tacos

1 Can Organic Chickpeas 
1 Package Taco Seasoning
1 Package taco shells we like corn 
1 Avocado diced
1 Tomato diced
Chopped up lettuce 

This dish is super easy to make and tasty!! This is our favorite Tuesday night taco meal. Empty the one can of chickpeas in a pan and turn burner to medium. After about 5 min add in the taco season and warm for another 5 and it's done. You can also toast the taco shells in oven according to the directions on the package and serve with diced avocado, and lettuce